I’ve been missing. Missing writing. Missing my blog. Missing days that seem to zoom by too quickly. Missing moments because I am too caught up in the next moment coming. Simply missing.
But, here I am now. Choosing today to begin again and not miss my writing and my blogging. One thing that has struck me over and over again these past months is how hard it is to be present in the moment. Everything around me begs for my attention to the next thing, the big idea, the Plan A, the “what are we going to do … ” and “how are we going to …” It is almost just as tumultuous to try and plan as it is to stay in the present!
Just this morning, I was reminded of my Savior’s words in Matthew 6 – “Therefore, do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.” I used to think that was easy…and it some aspects it is, and if embraced can be quite freeing. But these days, that seems to be very hard when our future looms with big life decisions for our family (you know- college, dating, adult-hood for our kids…).
Alas, though, these burdens are too much for me to carry and I am not meant to carry them. I have One Who rules the world, Who sees the yesterdays, todays and tomorrows, and Who loves me beyond comprehension. That One is on my side and I turn to Him. Releasing these worries and burdens and trusting Him. He is a good God who has a plan, sees the big picture, and I can trust Him. Period.
So – here is to hoping I am one step closer to departing from dwelling in the land of the Missing and beginning a journey to the land of the Present.